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latest updates..

2009-11-11T16:52:00.003+08:00

wow! Its has been long since I have updated this blog.
no.. I have not abandoned this blog ,just that Im too
busy with work and life.. but its all worthy I guess..

Anyway, a brief update of everything that has happened..
In June went China-Beijing and Xi'an with my family fer
holiday.. We had fun and enjoyed ourselves and took loads
of photos..

After that, news was told that our Beloved King of Pop
MJ has just passed on.. It is really sad ta hear that..

Been busy with work and going fer interviews as I do not
want work at my current place any more.. Kinda of sick
with people that are hypocrites and worst of all, my
secondary school classmate works here too.. At first, I
thought we will do well but soon I realized that this is
the most foolish way of thinking.. FRIENDS CAN'T REALLY
WORK IN THE SAME INDUSTRY.. I came upon the article in the
New Paper months ago, it did mentioned before that FRIENDS
THAT BECOME COLLEGUES CAN'T WORK IN THE SAME COMPANY AS
YOU BUT FROM COLLEGUES TA FRIENDS WE CAN cause we all have
different working attitude..

Im might be a workaholic and I see perfection in my work but
my collegue don't.. which irritates me alot of time but what
can I really do right.. I don't have a say not unless my boss
say something.. I DO NOT find her a great person but I guess
my teammates do think so.. OH MY GOD! My boss is on maternity
leave too so basically, my whole team broke apart.. I found no
team work and no team spirit in them any more etc..

I felt that everything collapse right after she came into our
department!! Perhaps, it wasn't well organized or what but who
am I to say anything and who is there ta hear all about all this?

I no longer feel the need ta work here anymore any longer.. totally
sucks a big time.. Anybody has a job out there, do let me know..
I really cant wait ta get outta of here.. i feel that Im suffocating
fer air everytime Im in the team with them.. :(

Anyway, Halloween was fun fun fun with no other words ta
describe.. Now, Im so looking forward ta my birthday
celebration with my family and friends.. excited.. =)

Happy Day..

2009-03-18T22:19:00.002+08:00

Hmmm, just a simple post about my feelings right now..
Im indeed very very delighted and I feel like shouting
out loud a 'YES, I HAVE DID IT!!'.. Haha.. Perhaps nobody
will understand how I feel now except my bestie and me..
I have received a very good news from my company today
and I received an awesome reward ta it.. Well, dont want
say much in here but the feeling is damn great.. Never in
my life have I felt so great about it.. All I want say is
my hard work is worthwhile and appreciated.. If my previous
company is as good as this, I guess I wont bother ta change
ta a totally stranger job scope.. Well, ta think of it..
Its really really worth everything..
All my wishes came true.. Yeah!!

I want ta thank my bestie especially fer all the support and
guidance all these while.. Without her, I wont be what I am
and what I want ta have in my life in helping me ta acheive
my goals today.. Thanks bestie once again.. I really appreciate
all her doings..
Love ya babe!! :)

Response to 'Happy Bdae Bestie'

2009-03-17T16:13:00.004+08:00

Its the time again! But this year was quiet & warm celebration for many other reasons; more of valuation of priorities of life - good ol' loved ones.

Immensely happy till am numbed to the mall's coldness(which normally aint my thing) during entire shopping trip. Am loving it as got my stuffs & quality peaceful time with my bestie..ahak2 cheeky2 yeah!!

TQ smely u e best! Anticipating simply for more good things coming our way...yah!

Happy Birthday Bestie..

2009-03-16T23:40:00.008+08:00

Its my bestie birthday in 20 minutes time..
we met up after my work and went down marina
square.. i bought a Lava Lamp as a present fer
her birthday and treat her ta Secret Recipe fer
our dinner.. We even went shopping along the way..
Hehe.. I got a nice pink top fer her niece and got
a polo tee fer my bestie too.. I also got myself a
tee all from Club Marc.. wohoo!! nice nice i liked..
Oh most importantly, bestie bought a pair of shoes..
Its damn nice on her while i bought a pair of shoes too..
Im glad that both bestie and i finally found what we
want fer a long time.. :) Yeah! Bestie i hope you had
an enjoyable warm and peaceful night..

Photos of our newly-bought shoes are taken below..

~my shoes~

~bestie's shoes~

Happy Birthday Bestie Love.. :)

Anniversary..

2009-03-07T00:00:00.004+08:00

Happy Anniversary Bestie..
We have been together like years again..
Time passes by so fast..
We thank god that we have come all the way..
Thanks bestie once again fer giving me the
support and care that she gave all these while..
Thanks fer going through thick and thin with me..
I really appreciate all the things that you have done
fer me..

Thanks once again bestie..
You will always be my bestie forever and ever.

Happy birthday to my friend Jingwen too..
May all your wishes come true..
Wish you good health and your on coming baby.. :)

Will try find sometime or way ta go Canada ta visit
you and your baby k.. no worries..
take care..

ciaoz..

Im Yours..

2009-03-05T11:01:00.002+08:00

this song is dedicated ta my bestie..
just want tell her i will stand by
her and be with her always and ever..
remember our promises and wishes that
both of us have made? well, bestie i
love you..

Well you done done me and you bet I felt it
I tried to be chill but you're so hot that I melted
I fell right through the cracks
Now I'm trying to get back
Before the cool done run out
I'll be giving it my bestest
And nothing's going to stop me but divine intervention
I reckon it's again my turn to win some or learn some

I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait, I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find love love love love
Listen to the music of the moment babay sing with me
We're just one big family
And It's our God-forsaken right to be loved love loved love loved

So I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm sure
There's no need to complicate
Our time is short
This is our fate, I'm yours

Scooch on over closer dear
And i will nibble your ear

I've been spending way too long checking my tongue in the mirror
And bending over backwards just to try to see it clearer
But my breath fogged up the glass
And so I drew a new face and laughed
I guess what I'm be saying is there ain't no better reason
To rid yourself of vanity and just go with the seasons
It's what we aim to do
Our name is our virtue

But I won't hesitate no more, no more
It cannot wait I'm yours

Well open up your mind and see like me
Open up your plans and damn you're free
Look into your heart and you'll find that the sky is yours
Please don't, please don't, please don't
There's no need to complicate
Cause our time is short
This oh this this is out fate, I'm yours!

Valentine's Day

2009-02-14T14:36:00.002+08:00

happy valentine's day ta all and my bestie..
times passes by so fast.. we have been celebrating
valentine's day together fer like 3 years.. wow!
this year will be a quiet and simple one..

well, valentine's day is about showing your love ta your
loved ones and families but i personally think everyday
is valentine's day.. we should showed and showered our
love everyday not only on valentine's day right? imagine
1 day we showed our special love ta our loved ones but
what about the rest of the 364 days? dont you think its
abit ridiculous?

well well, its my own rants.. afterall, its up ta others
what they choose ta say.. last but not least..
happy valentine's day!!

New Blogskins!!

2009-02-07T14:21:00.004+08:00

Finally decided ta change my blogskins..
brand new year fer a brand new thing..
simple and nice.. :)
Been real busy with work and CNY visiting etc..
Feel bad that I dont have time fer my loved one..
Though we talked on phone every night.. She is my
Bestie and my Best Friend Ever..
Anyway, today is her company Dinner and Dance so
wont be meeting her tonight.. i will be meeting my
another bestie, priska and her boyfriend..
Happy Anniversary..

I Am With You.. Loving You..

2009-01-29T16:01:00.003+08:00

I am standing with you
By this graveside.
I cannot take away
The pain and loss you feel,
But I can be with you
And share that crushing load.
I am here and weep also.
Take my hand,
Stranger though
I may be,
For I am standing with you
So you do not mourn alone..

above poems is fer dee who is sad.. cheer up kae..

below is a poem fer dee too..

name of poem is as follow according ta the title..

These are the long hours of your night,
When I, alone in daylight,
Walk paths unaccompanied, and miss you.
No hand to hold, no face to kiss,
No warm presence near me.
Somewhere ahead of you in time I live my life;
A capsule travelling without you through space,
Waiting for you to catch up
Or perhaps for me to fly high enough
So the world turns under me
And when I land we are together.

cosy gathering..

2008-11-28T12:24:00.003+08:00

hi peeps, im back.. im currently enjoying myself..
having a rejuvenated personal re-treat.. just came
back from a swim.. now looking forward ta all my
frens that is coming over in the evening.. foods,
drinks and snacks will be served ta them.. hope
they enjoyed themselves.. of cause i have my loved
one beside me all along.. thanks ta her that i manage
ta get things all well prepared and done..

Will take photos too.. Will upload when free.. Updates
soon.. Take care.. Happy Holidays..

De-stressing my way...

2008-10-17T22:30:00.003+08:00

Yoz peeps..
Ermm took leave today to relax wif the smelly..
Cant think of work, no work no stress..whahaha..
Fast journey to smelly's cave for kfc dinner..
Devoured on those yummy chix like a pair of carnivourous wolves..
Watched the tube awhile then we got the urge to create our own discreet video..
Haha use ur clean imagination coz we aint dirty 'that way'..
Put on a soothing jazzy song, calming aromatherapy in 'the' room..
Aaaahhh blissful contentment altho short-lived yet its a moment in time..
Okies smelly calling to do 'yoga' hehehe..nites & sweet dreams peeps!

happy anniversary..

2008-10-07T14:05:00.003+08:00

hello!! today is our anniversary..
guess how long have we been together..
well, its 24mths.. yes 24mths is 2years..
time really pass right.. oh my!! broke
the record of my previous of 1 and 1/2mth..
the previous one was painful.. this one has
various flavours blended ta it - abit bitter..
abit sweet and saucy as well - but the whole
thing turn out ta be awesome!! hahaha.. well,
if you dont know what im driving at, its ok..
haha..

she is sick.. down with fever a few days ago and
haven recovered.. she refused ta see a doctor..
sighs.. hope she is fully recovered though she feels
abit better but she still doesnt have any appetite ta
eat.. anyway, just hope she take care and rest well..

happy anniversary.. :)

updates soon..

laptops..

2008-09-26T11:45:00.005+08:00

payday is here.. so happy..
tomorrow is the day..
i finally can get my laptop..
novemeber i will get the new
phone that i want.. everything
comes easy fer me now..
just had a haircut yesterday..
anyway, sunday attending
cousin's wedding..
wednesday and thursday on leave..
going ta spend it with the silly..
yeah!! life is mudane but not bad..
well well, tonight starts the F1 night
race.. hopefully weather turns good..
if not, roads will be very slippery or
worst scenerio, they cancel it, what do
you think? haha.. anyway, company have
this buffet thing fer everyone every month..
food is nice and delicious.. yum yum..
anyway, looking forward and excited about
my laptop and my upcoming phone.. :)

last weekend was spent at my manager's house..
her house is damn nice and cosy la.. haha..
wish i could have a house like hers.. anyway,
i made cocktail fer everyone and they enjoyed
it.. we drank along with the rest until some of
us were all drunk.. we get ta play with the dogs too..
had fun and photos were taken.. will upload soon..
have a good weekend everyone.. cheers..

checkups..

2008-09-16T13:52:00.005+08:00

yesterday was on half day leave.. went ta see a doctor fer
my chest pains that im having all these while.. went in
and registered and the doctor ask me take some ECG.. so
went ta another room.. enter the room i was attended ta a
young nurse and advised me ta take off whatever accessories
im wearing and take off my clothes.. after that, just asked
me to lie down on the bed and relax.. i saw the nurse placing
some plaster on my body and then wires all over me.. within a
few minutes its done before i know it.. no pain.. nothing at all..
hahaha.. haven taken ECG in my life before.. anyway, went back ta
the doctor and she mentioned that nothing is wrong but its hard ta
say according ta the results.. its best ta take an X-ray.. so another
appointment was booked again fer further laboratory tests.. sighs..

after that, i met the silly gal and went fer lunch then headed home
ta rest.. first time i can actually rest at home.. so tired..
watched some dvds and rested then about 530 then went out fer dinner
and chill abit at coffeebean in gardens before headed back home..

that is about all.. more updates soon..

Yoz by Bitchoshopaholic

2008-08-14T12:25:00.005+08:00

Y am i here? Where am I? What's this? Damn lost of words but *smelly* yearns 4 my write-up, what the heck..at least I can doodle or scribe sumthing rather than ___. Oh well just revamped this oft-neglected site *sighs* & tada! Does this mean am a blogger? Geez I don't have a label..i repeat i don't have labels
~I'm the best damn thing~Ima do the damn thing~Watch me do the damn thing~
'Nuff said peeps, tata!

2008-07-27T22:12:00.004+08:00

i have been busy working and teaching new staff in my office cause some not working anymore.. anyone want ta find a job, come and find me.. hahaha.. well, hoping ta plan another holiday trip with loved ones again.. pictures are finally uploaded.. feel free ta browse through.. anyway, i had just received my uob platinum card and my diners card.. yeah!! all these while, have been trying save hard for things which is more ta come.. a new phone and a new laptop.. yeah!!

2008-05-14T08:20:00.002+08:00

im currently in the office.. just reached for work and blogging..
manager is on leave.. no government.. hahaha.. joking la.. anyway,
came back from bintan trip with her and my friends.. we really enjoyed ourselves..
took quite a few photos too.. hafta wait for her ta upload..
celebrated mum's birthday few days later, brother treat her for zhi cha dinner at my house downstairs.. though its cheap but its the thought that counts right? then, its mothers's day.. i treat my mum ta some zhi cha too on that day then afterwhich, she left for Hokkaido for holiday with my auntie.. hope she had fun.

talking ta her on the phone now after my lunch break, she told me about her dream.. she also said that it might be a sign that someone out there is gonna hurt her.. well, hopefully not and if i ever find out that person is who, i will make sure he/she will suffer lots from me.. cause i know that she is not worth the hurting and pain and suffering.. so whoever has any stupid thoughts or evil thoughts, get the hell outta of here.. get out from her life.. you are not welcome into either she or my life..

well, im that kind of person that like ta treasure friendships alot, if those who wants ta make use of my friendliness or whatever thoughts they have of me, then you are not worth being my friends at all.. no offence in pinpointing at people but its just my random thoughts cause i felt that nowadays many people are not trustworthy anymore, they used ta be your friend but after much incidents, they tend ta draw apart and betray you or whatsoever.. like people say, 1 good friend is good enough.. though i know some dont even want be my friend after so long, well i think its just their loss ba.. dont bother.. :) anyway, i think what i have ta say i already said..
gotta go back work.. updates soon.. cheers.. :)

2008-04-27T19:52:00.002+08:00

Long time never updates..
Anniversary over than birthday celebration..
Celebrated her birthday with my collegues and
her friends at Essential bar at Holland Village..
afterwhich, we went wala wala ta chill.. the lead
singer shirley rocks.. :) we played till quite late
before me and her headed back ta hotel.. I have
booked a hotel stay for both of us.. Its Link Hotel
near Tanjong Pagar area.. the hotel comes with different
themes like Chinese, Malay, Indians, Western and Modern etc..
We had a wonderful time.. She had enjoyed the every single
moment with friends.. Glad she had fun.. =)

Now planning for our oncoming Bintan trip this coming weekends..
Going out with Priska and her boyfriend, me and her.. 2 couples
all together.. im sure we will have lots of fun and enjoy the
nice scenery over there.. After that, me and her are planning
ta go on our Cameron trips end month.. looking forward too..
coming june going Kuala Lumpur with her and her mum.. Wow!!
Great!!

Anyway, we are together for almost 2 years already.. i guess i
very much needed her by me and support me.. without her help and
without her, everything is nothing meaningful ta me.. I truely
cherish and treasure her well.. i really sincerely hope we will
continue this path on and fulfill those dreams that we set for
both of us.. how envy we always wished for each other and i believe
we will reached that goal of ours together right? last but not least,
i love you with every beat of my heart..

"i could not become anything:
neither bad nor good, neither
a scoundrel nor an honest man,
neither a hero nor an insect.
And now I am eking out my days
in my corner, tauting myself with
the bitter and entirely useless
consolation that an intelligent man
cannot seriously become anything;
that only a fool can become something.."

2008-03-07T13:41:00.003+08:00

Happy Anniversary..

Today marks another obstacles we have gone through
over the month once again.. its tough and hard but
overall i guess this time around its much more
better than few months ago.. im glad about it and
im sure she is too.. yeah!! :)

Its been awhile ever since i blogged.. think this
blog has been moulded for a while.. hahahaha..
anyway, i hope this anniversary i a well- spent
one for us.. planning for her on coming birthday
hangout once again.. we found a place where it is
nice and cosy.. i hope she will like it.. after
which, we are planning for our HongKong trip and
Bintan trip etc.. and many many more.. :)

today is a day where my 2 collegues cum sisters
taking A level results too.. hope they are feeling
alright.. DONT WORRY KAE, YOU CAN DO IT!!
JIA YOU JIA YOU!! waiting for their calls to
know their results.. sighs.. Pray Hard..

im now in the office blogging lo.. so sian..
after lunch feel like sleeping.. hahaha..
looking forward to the weekends as there are
lots and lots of plans coming up.. cant wait..
well, guess there's about all for now.. will
blog again if i have the time.. take care..
cheers.. =)

2008-02-06T15:27:00.000+08:00

HAPPY CHINESE NEW YEAR!! Its CNY Eve.. everyone is having reunion dinner including me.. well, currently im like still working in the office lo.. gotta finish up whatever is pending before we can leave.. stupid boss right.. no half day.. hahaha.. so many days of break is good but at the same time is bad cause many work to do after that.. hahaha.. anyway, tomorrow will be a very busy day as we need set off early to go my granmother's place and bai nian.. then after that to my mum's family side.. its abit boring and sian cause they going ask the same question every year..
sighs.. sad lo.. anyway, hope everyone has a fruitful year and collect many many hongbaos..
Gong Xi Fa Cai!!

Tommorow is also my anniversary with beloved. Happy Anniversary Hun!! though we cant spend the day and time together, we both know we have each other to spend the rest of our life with and we are always together to overcome any obstacle right.. Happy Anniversary!!

Updates after CNY.. enjoy the holidays folks!!
Cheers!!

2007-12-29T13:26:00.000+08:00

im back for my trip.. christmas was splendid..
counting down ta new year with love..
anyway, photos will be loaded once ready..
been real busy lately.. haha..
oh ya, my diners club card has been approved
and im damn happy.. going get prepare ta meet
love already.. tatas..
cheers..

2007-12-21T10:00:00.000+08:00

times passes so fast.. its christmas, then new year..
anyway, tomorrow i'll be going on a trip ta Penang
& KL wif my gf and susan.. im so excited and looking
forward ta it.. our 1st trip is ta Bangkok.. 2nd trip
is ta Balai, 3rd trip is ta Batam, i guess this is the 4th
trip.. We are all spending christmas there.. Its the
1st ever christmas I spent overseas.. we will definitely
have alot of fun.. i guess i will update more when im
back and photos will be all uploaded by then..

Anyway, we are planning ta go ta HongKong and Taiwan
with my aunt too.. We have this mute friend who will be
joining us on the next trip too.. so fun.. cant wait.. yeah!!

Nevertheless, updates for the past few weeks.. Company
held a dinner and dance at Meritus Mandarin Hotel last
friday.. some were nicely costume dressed whereas the rest
just wore something nice and simple.. its was indeed a nice,
fun and humorous night.. my team were performing that
night.. we won some voucher too.. haha.. after which is the
dance part.. party was good but not the music wasnt that
great afterall.. the party ended around 1am.. afterwhich,
i took a night rider home.. :)

Last Tuesday my department went out for dinner ta treat
Janice as its her last day of work at the company.. We had
our dinner at this particular restaurant at PS.. afterwhich,
we walked around before going back home.. Then on Wed,
our company had this christmas party cum new year 2008..
we all had our dinner at the company.. nice food indeed..
think that's about all to update.. will update more when im
back from my trip.. cheers..

Lastly, wishing my family, all my friends and readers
an early Merry Christmas and a Happy New Year..
May you all have a wonderful christmas and a fruitful
year ahead of you with many happy returns.. Ho ho ho!!
cheers.. see ya in 2008..

2007-12-04T09:54:00.000+08:00

hey hey hey..
haha.. its been a long while ever since i start updating
my blog.. i think i can see mould growing on it already..
haha.. i guess i will just briefly updates some of the
latest happening that occurred.. had an early birthday
celebration at raffles the plaza with my family and aunt..
its was a splendid dinner.. photos will be uploaded too..
after that, on my actual day, i met up with diana and my
gf at ang mo kio hub for dinner.. diana treat me to sushi
and thanks for it.. afterwhich, gf bought me a hersheys
chocolates.. though its a short while but the time spent
with friends is indeed good.

On 24th Nov, gf organised a gathering for me with both
her friends and my friends and to celebrate my birthday
with me.. thanks for those who attended.. i really
appreciated it too.. we held it at MT Emily..
the place is nice and cosy.. at the gathering, all thanks
to susan for being the 'bartender'.. haha.. hope they all
had fun.. :) photos will be uploaded once ready..

1st Dec, my brother celebrate his 21st birthday celebration
at Allson Hotel.. its was a day well spent for him and his friends
and family i guess.. hope he enjoyed himself and happy that he
has received so many presents.. photos will also be uploaded..

oh ya, im looking forward to a trip with gf.. so looking forward
cause we are spending christmas for the first time.. yeah!!
think that is about all for now.. will updates again if any..
cheerios..

2007-10-07T20:40:00.000+08:00

today marks a very special day for both my girlfriend and me..
we are now officially attached after dating each other fer quite
awhile.. thanks fer the patience and tolerance with me.. i'll treasure
ya even more.. thanks fer everything that ya have done fer me..
JnR ruleZ!! haha.. though we have alot of obstacles along the way
but I know we both can overcome whatever obstacles that lies
within us right? hope we can be together fer as long as we can and
as long as possible.. I heart ya my beloved thee.. yeah! updates more..
:)

2007-09-16T18:31:00.000+08:00

im back finally.. went for holidays and was back..
came back from bangkok with my girlfriend..
photos were uploaded.. mostly all hers.. haha..
we really had fun but we didnt get ta buy alot of
stuffs.. jeanette is our guide there.. thanks for
spending time with us.. we hope ta visit you and
go there again.. :)

now im no longer working in hotel.. photos are
uploaded of my ex collegues.. i will miss them..
i've started work in office.. it wasn't an easy
start as i have ta get used ta the new lifestyle..
but afterall it turned out well, thanks ta my
boss thomas fer his patience and guidance..

yesterday, ju n diana came over ta my place..
we decided ta do some baking.. as it was our
first attempt, it didnt turned out as well but
overall, it was well.. afterwhich, we went down
ta chomp chomp at gardens fer our dinner..
it was ju's first time so we let her taste the food,
it was indeed superb.. by the end of our dinner,
we were all so full that we couldnt continue anymore..
so, we proceed ta liquid kitchen ta chill.. the place
was indeed very nice.. we took some pictures too..
we love taking pictures la.. haha.. photos are uploaded..
after which, we walked diana home than i sent my gal
home then it was home sweet home fer me..
we all had fun.. that's all.. updates soon..

- i loved ya with every beat of my heart -

2007-08-13T12:06:00.000+08:00

im back..

sat was a good day in meeting up with friends..
first i met up with diana at her block downstairs
than we proceed ta orchard cineleisure ta meet up
with her other friends.. afterwhich, spent some time
shopping and diana bought quite a few stuffs than we
went ta meet susan and ina at hong kong cafe at level 2
while waiting for ju.. we ate our dinner there.. we
went ta catch a french movie, la en via rose.. its a nice
touching sad story i can say.. the movie ended at 12 midnight,
we went ta take a cab and went down to MOS where benji is
already there waiting patiently for us while eating ice cream..
haha.. sorry ta keep you waiting dude.. we had fun dancing..
we were there till about three plus before we go on separate
ways.. thanks for the night out guys..
that's all.. update again..

2007-07-23T09:20:00.000+08:00

im not angry with anyone or
rather blame anyone..
i guess im not sure myself too..
all i know is im feeling very very
sad deep down inside and i dont
know how to make myself feel better?
i dont like the feeling im having..

time passes fast and gradually its
been nine months..
all these months im very happy but
many a times im very sad too.. i dont
know if anyone understands what im
driving at and going through but i just
wanna let it out.. i dont feel the closeness
and assurance and secureness.. i felt like
we are totally strangers and that is really
so bad..

she always blame me for everything but
think deep down, isit really everything my
fault? i was just trying hard to treasure and
cherish whatever time we had with each
other cause we are both busy with our fucking
job, we cant blame others only at ourselves..
as we know we are big enough and age is catching up..
we need to work hard and fight happiness together
towards our goals or rather her goals..

i dont want fight our happiness alone.. im tired..
i know many a times she has to restrain herself
from getting close but i think she really need to
adapt it, if previously she can, why not now? isit
that lousy and useless that she cant feel proud of
her own partner? we could only feel each other
when its just the 2 of US!! but its between our
friends or rather her friends.. does it really matters
so much?? i can understand if there's a crowd but many
a times its just around friends..

we are like strangers and i really envy those
that are close.. when i took the intiative, i was
rejected and i hate that and when i dont, my
partner complains.. what more can i do?? i dont
feel secureness and assurance from her at all..
its not about my gal is pretty, has big boobs, has
many suitors and friends that are interested in her
or whatsoever, its also not about me not having
confidence in myself but its just that the basic thing
is missing in her.. i just wanna feel secure in her arms
and let her know she's important and im there always
for her.. and i want to feel proud having her as my gal
rather than strangers but sadly, i dont feel any and i cant..
would she ever understand how i feel rather than she always
said im lacking of understanding..

i wanna move on further with our relationship,
but can i really do that and overcome all these?
i really dont wanna feel hurt and than force myself to
stop loving and seeing her.. i have been waiting all these
while for her and to see the changes in her, that's why i
didnt do anything just yet cause i dont wanna get hurt
even more later in our relationship and we had a big
fight about it.. it will hurt her and me even more..
i guess she's not ready yet.. what am i suppose to do,
any kind soul wanna help? im so stressed up and kept
all these pains myself.. i guess only priska, my friend
knows all about it.. i rather get the hurt than letting
her get hurt so i guess i will still keep all these myself
down the road.. thanks for everything.. if ever you are
ready, do let me know.. i'll be the happiest guy on earth
waiting for the day to come..

take care..

2007-03-16T12:13:00.000+08:00

im back and im on leave.. yeah!!
this weekend is a getaway fer me..
free from work and the busy city life..
im sure SHE agrees too.. hopefully, it
turns out well and SHE enjoyed it..
leaving soon ta fetch HER at HER place
than set off ta our destination.. haha.. so
excited and so looking forward ta it.. oh, its
HER birthday tomorrow too.. hereby, wanna
wish HER, a Happy Birthday.. it will be a good
memorable one fer you.. will have photos and
updates more when im back.. meanwhile, take
care folks..

- happy birthday ta you honey love -

2007-01-13T13:08:00.000+08:00

life's been so hectic.. busy working..
enjoying life at the same time too..
life is short.. this year is full of plans..
friends birthday coming up, holidays
plans ta Bali, Philippines coming too..
Oh man! so many things.. im off today..
so going meet ju later and catch a movie
and dinner at night than meet up with
her friends for some chilling or clubbing
perhaps.. its been long.. haha.. its been
raining for days and hopefully it will not
rain later.. gotta go.. updates soon..

- how i wish i had you in my arms on rainy days -

2007-01-06T10:40:00.000+08:00

happy new year ta everyone.. though
i know its abit late.. been busy lately..
busy working.. so must understand..
anyway, counting down with my friends
was fun and tired.. anyway, nothing
much ta blog.. just happy with my life..
enjoying life ta the fullest and busy
working and saving money.. im going
ta work soon.. anyway, photos are uploaded
for the short trip i went with collegue and
ju.. take a look at short trip.. updates soon..

2006-12-29T14:26:00.000+08:00

hey guys, realized i didnt blog fer a
longie time.. been busy lately.. just
touched down singapore last night..
previously, brought parents back ta
my working place ( M Hotel ) fer a
treat den went shopping.. then back
work during the festive seasons.. hope
everyone had a wonderful christmas..
i was on leave after that so went
overseas with a collegue and ju.. we
had fun though its just a short trip..
we took pictures too.. will be uploaded
soon.. anyway, later have to back to work..
signs.. ju went KL today.. hope she enjoy
and had fun.. its been raining and flooding
all over in malaysia and im worried fer her..
looking forward fer her calls once she
reached ta let me know she's safe and sound..
kaes, nothing much ta blog.. updates soon..

- i miss her -